For years I chased perfection full-time.
I was on a never-ending quest to have the perfect voice, perfect job, perfect body, perfect relationship, and the perfect life.
But what no one knew was that behind the illusion of perfection, I was miserable.
I wasn't eating. I wasn't sleeping. Every moment of every day was spent pushing myself to the limit. I was overworking, over-exercising, and overachieving.
I was training to be a professional opera singer and appeared confident and successful on the outside, but on the inside, I was a mess.
"I was living in constant fear of never being enough and starving myself to gain control over my life."
I loved the art of singing and the idea of being a singer...
I'd been singing my whole life and everyone told me it was what I was meant to do. It was easy for me and made me feel special, seen, and heard. I began identifying myself as "a singer" and let all other parts of my voice go completely un-nurtured.
When I sang, people listened. But deep down, I knew that something was "off."
During difficult conversations, around meals, while trying on clothes, taking photos, or faced with conflict; my whole body would become constricted and I would just stop breathing. I'd completely freeze with anxiety and started having regular panic attacks.
I would hear a small, sweet voice that kept begging me to breathe, slow down, listen to my body, and stop trying to control everything. Yet I refused to listen. It became harder and harder for me to recognize the loving voice of my intuition and I fell into a state of deep depression. I had trouble sleeping, began self-sabotaging, and would do everything I could to numb the pain.
My wake up call came in a doctor’s office in graduate school when I realized if I continued down this path of overworking and starving myself, I’d end up dead. I had a choice to make. Was I going to leave school, lose my scholarship, and to go to a treatment center, OR could I learn how to listen to my intuition, nurture my body, and let go of perfectionism?
Faced with this choice I made the decision to surrender the quest for perfection, lovingly embrace my flaws, celebrate my uniqueness, and find my AUTHENTIC voice, beyond singing.
I got my hands on every recovery book I could find, did all the exercises, filled countless journals, started meditating and praying, began doing yoga, got an amazing therapist and a nutritionist, attended support groups, and slowly but surely - I recovered.
The ironic thing was as I gained weight and began working less, I somehow felt lighter and gained something unexpected in return...
I began to consciously take deeper breaths and stopped struggling to fit in size 0 skinny jeans. In fact, I stopped wearing clothes that restricted my breathing and noticed my body and my life began to flow.
I soon discovered BREATHWORK on a women's empowerment retreat and my life was forever changed.
As a singer, I've always had a close relationship to breathing, but I'd never explored the healing capacity of the breath.
Through this self-healing practice, I learned to connect mind, body, and spirit and Let Go of old emotions and thought patterns that no longer served me.
I discovered an unlimited supply of creative inspiration and guidance and started making decisions from the heart.
I cleaned up my relationship with my body, breath, and voice, and started teaching others how they can do the same.
I offer a variety of ways to work together, from 1:1 Mentorship and Coaching to Breathwork and Vocal Empowerment Workshops, to a new Digital Sisterhood and Wellness Collaborative for Women's Spiritual Growth.
Keep reading for more information on how to get started. today. I'm so looking forward to connecting with you, love!
“Doing this work has become an essential part of my life not only for my own wellness and expansion, but for the clarity it brings me in my business and relationships as well. I literally feel that everyone would benefit from the support Lydia offers.
I am so thankful to have found this angel!
- Alyssa L.
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